It's been a strange day. This week I managed to locate a blueberry place open on Tuesdays, and off we went in a caravan. Myself, 4 mothers (2 pregnant) , 9 children. I confess to being in one of my worse moods and as such I was grumpy with the kids as I gave them each instructions. I presumed that sensing my mood they would mostly stick with their mothers, but I was wrong. They followed me through the thickest blueberry patch I had ever seen, bushes planted too close together and poorly trimmed. It felt more like a thicket. And while the mother's stuck to the periphery, the children and I squeezed our way into the middle where all the good berries were.
For an hour, about every 90 seconds my brain automatically paused and recounted my sheep and called the names of the ones farthest away to come closer or chided the ones throwing sticks or pointed out more berries within the reach of the shorter ones. At some point my brain registered an anomaly...I was counting an extra child. I quickly counted again and realized I had picked up a 2 year old latino girl who wanted to be with my group. There wasn't much I could do so I just watched out for her too and assumed somebody would come look for her after a while. Indeed after about 15 minutes a woman began to frantically call out in spanish from what seemed an acre away "My baby girl where are you?". Funny thing is that while I would have been able to understand what this woman was saying even if I didn't know any spanish...she was too frantic and upset to understand my replies in either language. So with my gaggle in tow I carried the little child toward the sound of the frantic voice. I felt for the woman during her 5 minutes of panic while I was working to get so many children through the bushes to return her missing babe...but sometimes miracles take time.
For the record I have always felt that the greatest miracle is the softening of heart, the abundance of forgiveness, the calm within the storm. Sometimes pain, worry and panic are part of the process by which we learn the value of these things....afterall is not the lesson of faith born upon the back of doubt? God hears our pleas and he is operating for our good, even when all we see around us are bushes....even when our cries of pain drown out the sound of his reassurances. Sometimes he is trying to tell us exactly where our missing things are and we are too frightened to hear. Continue to practice hearing the sound of his voice I Kings 19.11 we all have days in the wilderness when we are desperate for that very sound.